Monday, December 26, 2011

Do these drains make me look fat?

First couple of days were a little rough but every day I have a small victory.

Every day I gain a little more mobility in my arms - it is very frustrating not to be able to reach the toilet paper, comb my hair, scratch an itch, get dressed or get anything out of the fridge. 

This morning I could finally reach the toilet paper.  Yay!  Up til now it might as well been 3 miles away.

My drains are slowing down and I hope to get them out this week.   By far they are the most disgusting and irritating thing about this operation.

Yesterday I took a walk around the block. 

Still, for as good as things have been going, I have my bad moments. 

I am getting cranky from trying to sleep sitting up and every movement wakes me.    The cranky sometimes leaks out to my family who are really being so good to me.

I still have not looked in a mirror.  I am told that the bruising that originally came up to my collar bones is receding quickly, but that first glimpse  was enough to keep me from looking again.

And I keep having these short random crying jags.  I mean, is there any reason to start uncontrollably sobbing when Ralphie gets his Red Rider BB gun?   

But I am so much better than I thought I'd be at this point.  I was able to enjoy Christmas with my family, opening gifts and eating entirely too much junk.  I  have had incredible dreams being visited by both Lauren and Daphne in very calm and loving scenarios.  (I hope that continues)  And the anesthesia is finally starting to clear so my family has stopped laughing at all the stupid and repetetive things I apparently kept doing. 

Now I just need some snow.

I hope you all were able to find some joy in whatever you celebrate.   


  1. This is a wonderful Christmas present - to be able to see you actually up and around! And yay for getting drains removed.

    So glad you're doing as well as you are. I suspect your family is just fine with a little cranky. I certainly would be.

    Hugs all around.

  2. PS I'm so glad you have had good dreams with Lauren and Daphne. I'm not surprised.

  3. Excellent news!!

    I can cry uncontrollably at any number of random things. Ralphie and the BB gun seem as good a reason as any. :-)

    I'm so glad that you had a good Christmas--complete with "visits" from Daphne and Lauren. Now go easy on yourself, Super Woman--I'm pretty sure they would both tell you that...

    Much love,

  4. Yay - what an awesome update!

  5. No, you look fantastic. Up and around, and feeling well enough to feel irritable is a good sign. Just sayin. I'm glad your dreams have been good.

    Next stop, the fridge.

  6. If those are your bad moments, you are indeed a super woman. You look great! Once the drains are out and you can start physical therapy, you will be back to your normal active self in no time.

  7. They are not drains, as I tell all of my mastectomy PT they are your balls.

    So cojones to you and how fast you are healing.

  8. You look fantastic! So there.

    Really, really happy that you are doing so well, 8. What a relief! Go ahead and be cranky, you have every right to be... your family understands.

    And, how great to have both Daphne and Lauren in your dreams. Good dreams. Lovely.