Monday, December 26, 2011
Do these drains make me look fat?
First couple of days were a little rough but every day I have a small victory.
Every day I gain a little more mobility in my arms - it is very frustrating not to be able to reach the toilet paper, comb my hair, scratch an itch, get dressed or get anything out of the fridge.
This morning I could finally reach the toilet paper. Yay! Up til now it might as well been 3 miles away.
My drains are slowing down and I hope to get them out this week. By far they are the most disgusting and irritating thing about this operation.
Yesterday I took a walk around the block.
Still, for as good as things have been going, I have my bad moments.
I am getting cranky from trying to sleep sitting up and every movement wakes me. The cranky sometimes leaks out to my family who are really being so good to me.
I still have not looked in a mirror. I am told that the bruising that originally came up to my collar bones is receding quickly, but that first glimpse was enough to keep me from looking again.
And I keep having these short random crying jags. I mean, is there any reason to start uncontrollably sobbing when Ralphie gets his Red Rider BB gun?
But I am so much better than I thought I'd be at this point. I was able to enjoy Christmas with my family, opening gifts and eating entirely too much junk. I have had incredible dreams being visited by both Lauren and Daphne in very calm and loving scenarios. (I hope that continues) And the anesthesia is finally starting to clear so my family has stopped laughing at all the stupid and repetetive things I apparently kept doing.
Now I just need some snow.
I hope you all were able to find some joy in whatever you celebrate.