Friday, April 15, 2011

Returning to the Scene

This weekend, as part of my exposure therapy, I will be returning to the place where my partner and I were attacked. I have not stepped on that university campus since that day. Not to defend my thesis or receive my degree. Not to visit my favorite niece when, a few years later, she attended school there or her graduation. Not when my own daughters played in tournaments there.

I once tried going on my own but didn’t get to the front entrance without starting to heave. This time my therapist will be with me and one of my closest friends will be nearby, available for support. I am not sure why this is such a huge hurdle for me. Perhaps the biggest. We have been working on this for weeks in therapy. It is just a place. But even the thought of it has my heart pounding in my chest.

Any good thoughts, positive energy and/or prayers would be appreciated.


  1. She wouldn't have you go if you were not ready. You've worked hard for this.

    For you, hugs and prayers and love and strength.

    It's in you.

  2. I offer you my love, prayers and support. You are an inspiration to me.

  3. I'll be thinking of you and dedicating tomorrow's practice to you - hoping it finds you and lends you the ability to breathe through this.

  4. You are supported by prayers and angels, friendship and love.


  5. We are all there with you in spirit. I will be sending energy, strength, courage, and love.

    You are an amazing person with a core of iron. Trust that you are ready. Remember to breathe. You are moving through, no longer stuck.

    I'll be thinking of you all weekend.

  6. may you find peace in every step.

  7. Love and light to you - you are safe and loved and so incredibly courageous.

  8. 8th Day--I have been offline much of this week, and have not seen this entry and the last one until now. I pray for you frequently, and I believe that all prayer is NOW, whenever "now" is--so know that you have been/are being held in my thoughts before, during, and after your experiences. I hope that bird flies far, far away....and that you continue to sleep deeply and peacefully.


  9. I hope that your weekend went better than expected and that you came away a stronger person.