Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Still Standing

I realize that I have not written here in quite awhile. I am doing what I need to do, moving through my days, just trying to avoid the mine fields. January in a nutshell -

I have returned to therapy to face my final darkness. It is hard and scary work and difficult to write about here.

Work has become a nightmare with a major project about to die because they can no longer get financing for all the bullshit conditions that were imposed of them by the politicians. It has now become my job to go to all the people/groups who had their hands out and ask them for concessions. Some of these people are the scum of the earth, know they have the upper hand, and are just jerking me around. It is my responsibility to negotiate this project back on track but I’m really tired of falling on the sword for it.

Hormones have once again taken over my house. I never know if I’m coming home to my best friend or her evil twin. Every day is an adventure there.

To date Peachie has been accepted into the highly competitive physical therapy programs at 10 colleges, including her top two choices. With those acceptances began the calls from hockey coaches doing their recruiting thing. Unfortunately these are mostly Division III schools so no athletic scholarship money and her grades were not quite good enough for those impressive presidential scholarships her sister got. Average yearly tuition: $45 - $50 grand. With every acceptance my head is spinning.

So January passed, one shell shocked day after the other. But I’m still standing. I’ll consider that a win.


  1. I feel your pain. Financing has become a game changeer at work, at school and at home.

    "Still standing" still beats the alternative. Hang in there.

  2. Ooooof. Yay for Peachie's acceptances! Sorry for all the rest of the suckage...

    Are any of her accepts state schools with reasonable tuition? Big debt coming out of college is a big bummer....

  3. Doxy - yes, she did get accepted at two 'safety net' state schools. Unfortunately our state is in such bad fianancial shape, the state schools are making deep cuts to programs and staff. To start at a state school, in a very specific program, is a crap shoot. But she may have no choice, which also sucks.

  4. Thanks for posting. I was thinking about you. And one thing I was thinking was a Winston Churchill quote:
    If you are going through hell, keep going.

    Seems to fit your situation pretty darned well, I sorry to say. If you feel like venting, let it out. We're here to commiserate and cheer you on.

    Hang in there!

  5. Still shoveling : )

    Call if you want a cup of tea, a sympathic ear or a respite from "the evil twin."

  6. Yikers! Well, you're definitely in the thoughts of many.

    Love the Churchill quote - just keep going!

  7. still standing is a great accomplishment, imho.

  8. I have been saving for Grad school for a couple of months now, preparing myself for what's to come. Gf is in Grad school now but is still paying off loans from undergrad--she graduated in 2001. sigh. It's not easy. But it is worth it...right? Yeah, it def. has to be worth it...eventually.

    p.s. - I owe you some words. :) xoxo

  9. Glad you are still standing. And I hope your head is spinning less. I can relate to your pain of being the arbitrator between two parties looking for extremes. Stick with your instincts and integrity.