I am having a little trouble getting out of first gear.
I was going to write a post about what I learned in 2014, which was mostly about being humbled. I didn’t get around to writing it.
And then I was going to write about my plans, intentions and resolutions for 2015. That didn’t happen either. Apparently I am not quite ready for 2015. Maybe soon.
I did take an awesome Italian pastry cooking class with my oldest daughter. Most of it was way beyond my skill level but I did make these.
And then I spent a week with both my daughters in a place where the grass was still green and the temps were at least 60 degrees warmer than home. I was still recuperating from the ruptured appendix so I required a lot of rest. I slept a lot. I began to feel old and sorry for myself.
I came home and my surgery got delayed because I developed a wicked cold and cough. I started getting a little depressed about it because I just want all this medical stuff to be over and I still have two more surgeries after this.
Then finally I had my decrepit appendix removed. The surgery was easy, the anesthesia was a bitch. It felt like triggering while being held under water. And I have since been struggling to snap myself out of that fog.
I have an undefined sadness that I can’t seem to shake. Probably made more difficult because I can’t do anything physical while I’m recuperating. I’m not even allowed to take a sauna for 4 weeks! So I sit. Or nap.
And then once I feel better I will need another surgery which will knock me down again.
Then I remembered that writing here helps me get through the doldrums.
Sorry this is one long, sad, whining, complaining post.
I feel better already : )